Exhale.......................................................

It's been a long time coming. The few emails I've gotten from my teacher about Navaratri have played their role as a reminder; specifically about the first 3 days being one of working through the tamastic patterns of regressive behaviors in our living space and in our lives.  

A few weeks ago I was teaching from a Kali Ma point of view.... drawing the lines, knowing when to say NO and how to chant our YESes through movement of Yogic Arts and Budokon. That was my practice of searching my soul for courage and doing my damnedest to tap into that strength on reserve.  

This week I have been opening classes sharing an experience that I had at the holistic dentist's office on Monday. While sitting in the waiting room for my appointment,  I sent out my petition to the Universe to show me or help me to follow through with what my inner knower was trying to teach me. Someone walked in the door which caught my attention and I looked up across the room at the DENTIST'S OFFICE to see none other than a small statue of Ganesha- the Hindu Deity who purifies for the removal of obstacles which encourages the invocation of Auspicious new beginnings.  

So the shape at hand for classes this week to go along with that story was centered around (but certainly not limited to...) Garudasin; the serene Eagle, who in MY mind, stands in steadiness in the storm. The opposition of this shape says it all. The rising energy in upward, pranic motion yet we remain in our roots grounded into the Earth which supports our every need. One leg underneath the other, opposite arm on top of the other, energies drawing in opposite directions which is only possible when we tap into our center first and foremost willing and unafraid to sit into our strength even when we are fearful of the fall. All of this we do while connecting to our Adi Shakti, the original Shakti, divine feminine rising up first THROUGH, then above it all.  

So I write tonight with a little opposition within myself at the moment. Part of me is sad and heavy from opposition of my knowing heart (truth, trust, all knowing) vs the thinking mind (illusion, ego, fear). The other part is a little lighter with pride in that I called on courage and strength when it wasn't easy and quite honestly, when I didn't want to in many ways but needed to. I do believe one of my original goals posted when I started this blog was to develop extreme trust in the process... that's the process of trusting that the Universe unfolds as it's meant to indeed and that if I feel it in my heart and in the chambers of my soul- then it exists and it's my dharma to receive it.  

That's the thing about yoga; its there for us in whatever form we decide to meet it. So how to move forth? I'd have to say that's a personal question we must ask of ourselves. If I'm being honest in knowing myself, right now, the only choice I have to survive this experience is to dive into a deep space of presence being the keeper of my own thoughts... being responsible for them. Nobody else has that kind of power over what I chose to put my mental energy into. Knowing myself, I find that whatever I put mental energy into, the heart follows so then it becomes emotional and when it's emotional, then I'm shit out of luck and I move back into toxic patterns of thought which govern and suppress the flow of liberation and expansion in all areas of my existance. I'm a Pisces, very intuitive, creative, a natural caregiver, and am guided (for better or for worse), by my pulsating heart.

To ME, even at its worst, that's a beautiful quality.  

Petitioning Peaceful, Pink, Fuzzy, Unconditional, Full Body Hugging thoughts,
Sanieh
www.saniehyoga.com