Live Out Loud.

I arrived home around midnight last night for a short week-long intermission. I always love the return HOME especially when home is flying in over the UT tower and the beautiful Austin.

There are many questions the past 8 days has me asking of myself. This experience was far deeper and the many experiences that I witnessed and lived in myself simply cannot be put on paper... but what I CAN share is this...

I have come into this incarnation to realize that it doesn't matter if someone else supports you or praises your efforts or congratulates you or your successes, what matters is that you always move from anahata, your heart space and energy wheel always no matter if anyone else does or not. I've come into this incarnation to realize that the dimples on my tush, the size of my breasts, the many scars on my body, the color of my skin or the genetics of my teeth do not in any way show others what my SOUL looks like. I've learned that sometimes a smile heals and can save lives without our ever knowing it. I've realized that beauty is a soul thing, not a skin thing.

I've learned that coming clean and being CLEAR on who we are is what is most important no matter what society says or thinks. I've learned that love comes in all colors, sizes and sexes and that the world needs more of it however it may manifest itself. I've learned that friends can be found in all places and manifestations and that they might have a beautiful mohawk or they may bark and that forgiveness frees not the person we have been carrying on our back the whole time, but it frees our self. I've come into this incarnation to learn that sometimes a long full body contact hug can nourish the soul almost instantly and that the longer the embrace, the more food you receive and give. I'm still learning the power of NO and that if we are able, we should always say YES to someone in need. I'm learning that forgiveness of ourselves is key and that happiness can only be found in truthfulness of freely living and showing our true colors and being unafraid to do so; and if we ARE afraid, we must find courage.

I've come into this incarnation to realize that sometimes someone's best love isn't enough and that being true to ourselves makes us better people and better able to love the world around us. I've learned the power of a simple gesture and the importance of kindness and thoughtfulness. I'm learning that we should always do and say things without expectation of getting something back; that we should always move from a space of authenticity and that pure love is doing so simply because we want to, not for any kind of return.

I've learned to say "I love you." without a question mark at the end trying to hear it back; I'm learning that love is an action, not a verb.

I'm learning that sometimes love looks like a beautiful Goddess friend sitting next to you on an old bench outside of a smoothie bar on Barton Springs while you tear up over the little girl within you who lost her mother or that it looks like a loved one picking you up late night from the airport with a cooler in the back seat with a weeks worth of healthy fresh fruits, food, and great love prepared for you so you don't have to grocery shop before your next flight 7 days later.

I'm learning that sometimes loves means letting go so that we can reinvent ourselves! I've learned that we must know in all things, when it's time to go, even when we don't want to and I'm learning to trust that we should, (in my teachers beautiful words) "dare to risk not knowing until its time to know and until then; learn learn learn".

I've come into this incarnation to know that whatever it is that I practice I must be fully committed to really live the essence of it. I've realized the true meaning of PUJA! I've come into this incarnation to realize that I really am not my name yet my name has history and roots and heritage and divine meaning and that I should care if it is mispronounced or misspelled.

I've come into this incarnation to realize that I AM lovable!

I've come into this incarnation to explore music, to write poetry and to SING and to TEACH because I have a story to tell...

I've come into this incarnation to be the eternal student and not to be submissive, but to surrender to the source that I see as my Ishta Devata that is the Sun, grass, nature, and the ocean.

I've come into this incarnation to realize and  fulfill my righteous duty and purpose as a soul in this body, my DHARMA.

More to come...

Love, Light, and Liberation
Sanieh
http://www.saniehyoga.com/