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October 2009 
The long day is DONE.
Posted on May 20th, 2009
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Sanieh
Sanieh
Okay already. O-KAY.
The last 7-10 days have been absolutely crazy in the world of what has seemed to be "the seventh ring of hell" (thanks for the expression, B!) that is my thinking mind.
I've come into intimate connection with areas in my life that need un-doing so that I can weave a new blanket so to speak.
"Everything must change" I kept saying to myself. "See all of these areas where I am moving from a place of expectation and doing/being/saying/living in a way that is inspired from all that I think is expected of me or all that I think people *think* I should be etc. (can you see where this could go...?) Come back to my own authenticity, my own heart."
This is was my day in a very tight nutshell...
*wake up late, feeling like, well, like hell.
*almost talk myself out of my commitment to attending Cross Fit today at 10 as part of my "transmission yoga" TM program sadhana (email me if you are curious...) but found my gusto, thank goodness
*240 lunges later (and them some...) I wobbled to teach a sweet class at 12 noon
*headed to meeting with Michelle for website offering revamp and get pinged... 15 min later, I'm in debt to Travis county $200 to which the super nice officer hands me the unattractive ticket as he suggests driver's safety saving me some money but costing me half a day in exchange.
*meet Michelle, who is the best sight of my entire day- to go over website stuff even though we both have computer issues
*meanwhile pending important and sensitive phone conversation with friend that's been lingering for a few days and that anticipation is building...
*meeting ends, phone conversation had... the day is looking up
*head to Yoga Vida 707 where my lululemon friends crash the party and surprise me with their presence and I get to meet more new people at this special new class
*I'm surprised with a beautiful orchid from Sweet Jeff who read my "15 years later" blog and wanted to acknowledge
*Surprised again with a note card from Lulu friends "Why Lululemon loves Sanieh" comments that bring tears that I fight back because there are new people in my class and I need not let my crazy out of the jar just yet ;)
*Class ends, we end standing, I break out in song that I can barely sing because it's been so damn long but I'm a sensitive love junky like that so it is what it is :)
*head to Lulu to get my run pants, see friends when another sweet man crosses my path and tells me "I just hit your car".
oh for F%&#$ sake!!!!!!
I swear to you I thought he/they were kidding. I think I sort of laughed even so. It's so perfect. Yes, I mean that. It's SO perfect...
"OKAY ALREADY. I'm LI-STEN-ING!!!!!!"
This is what I've come to.
Life speaks.
Our life speaks to us. It's not about the effing ticket or the perfectly happy driver side door I had or anything else... it's the big picture. I am a firm believer that we have nudges (how I was feeling pending important phone conversation), then we have little pushes ($200 ticket from a sweet, but not too sweet law authority), then an elbow into the jaw ("I'm so sorry for backing into your car"), and then there's a freaking BRICK that falls on the head... so at this point, I'm choosing to surrender and spare myself the brick to head. It's not about the car, the ticket, the conversation...
OF COURSE my car was hit. It's so whack and perfect at the same time.
What is life trying to tell you right now?
What are you resisting?
If you pray for patience, you're most likely going to find yourself in a traffic jam.
"Here ya go, here's your teacher", life says.
Through all of this... there are sprinkles of love and light. Seeing Michelle's face and acknowledging her hard work and time in this project of mine and seeing her eyes fill up having received my gratitude.
Feeling more connected to my friend after heart to heart conversation that could have gone in any direction.
A thoughtful offering Orchid from someone who cares.
A reminder of that I am loved by those who I have invested time and energy into , who have in return, invest time and energy into me.
It's not all car wrecks and tickets... but it takes car wrecks and tickets (and super sweet and kind people to serve me the information of them) to recognize how great I have it.
So here I am, undoing everything I've made it about in all of it's "effed-up-ness"... undoing the thread and coming back with needle and yarn of my own color choices in hand to sew a new sheath that most authentically represents the love and beauty, the light and liberation, and all of the glory that I dream of becoming...all that awaits the ascension to my highest potential...
Today, I bow to all of my teachers in their many forms.
LoveLoveLove,
sanieh
www.saniehyoga.com
www.twitter.com/saniehyoga
The last 7-10 days have been absolutely crazy in the world of what has seemed to be "the seventh ring of hell" (thanks for the expression, B!) that is my thinking mind.
I've come into intimate connection with areas in my life that need un-doing so that I can weave a new blanket so to speak.
"Everything must change" I kept saying to myself. "See all of these areas where I am moving from a place of expectation and doing/being/saying/living in a way that is inspired from all that I think is expected of me or all that I think people *think* I should be etc. (can you see where this could go...?) Come back to my own authenticity, my own heart."
This is was my day in a very tight nutshell...
*wake up late, feeling like, well, like hell.
*almost talk myself out of my commitment to attending Cross Fit today at 10 as part of my "transmission yoga" TM program sadhana (email me if you are curious...) but found my gusto, thank goodness
*240 lunges later (and them some...) I wobbled to teach a sweet class at 12 noon
*headed to meeting with Michelle for website offering revamp and get pinged... 15 min later, I'm in debt to Travis county $200 to which the super nice officer hands me the unattractive ticket as he suggests driver's safety saving me some money but costing me half a day in exchange.
*meet Michelle, who is the best sight of my entire day- to go over website stuff even though we both have computer issues
*meanwhile pending important and sensitive phone conversation with friend that's been lingering for a few days and that anticipation is building...
*meeting ends, phone conversation had... the day is looking up
*head to Yoga Vida 707 where my lululemon friends crash the party and surprise me with their presence and I get to meet more new people at this special new class
*I'm surprised with a beautiful orchid from Sweet Jeff who read my "15 years later" blog and wanted to acknowledge
*Surprised again with a note card from Lulu friends "Why Lululemon loves Sanieh" comments that bring tears that I fight back because there are new people in my class and I need not let my crazy out of the jar just yet ;)
*Class ends, we end standing, I break out in song that I can barely sing because it's been so damn long but I'm a sensitive love junky like that so it is what it is :)
*head to Lulu to get my run pants, see friends when another sweet man crosses my path and tells me "I just hit your car".
oh for F%&#$ sake!!!!!!
I swear to you I thought he/they were kidding. I think I sort of laughed even so. It's so perfect. Yes, I mean that. It's SO perfect...
"OKAY ALREADY. I'm LI-STEN-ING!!!!!!"
This is what I've come to.
Life speaks.
Our life speaks to us. It's not about the effing ticket or the perfectly happy driver side door I had or anything else... it's the big picture. I am a firm believer that we have nudges (how I was feeling pending important phone conversation), then we have little pushes ($200 ticket from a sweet, but not too sweet law authority), then an elbow into the jaw ("I'm so sorry for backing into your car"), and then there's a freaking BRICK that falls on the head... so at this point, I'm choosing to surrender and spare myself the brick to head. It's not about the car, the ticket, the conversation...
OF COURSE my car was hit. It's so whack and perfect at the same time.
What is life trying to tell you right now?
What are you resisting?
If you pray for patience, you're most likely going to find yourself in a traffic jam.
"Here ya go, here's your teacher", life says.
Through all of this... there are sprinkles of love and light. Seeing Michelle's face and acknowledging her hard work and time in this project of mine and seeing her eyes fill up having received my gratitude.
Feeling more connected to my friend after heart to heart conversation that could have gone in any direction.
A thoughtful offering Orchid from someone who cares.
A reminder of that I am loved by those who I have invested time and energy into , who have in return, invest time and energy into me.
It's not all car wrecks and tickets... but it takes car wrecks and tickets (and super sweet and kind people to serve me the information of them) to recognize how great I have it.
So here I am, undoing everything I've made it about in all of it's "effed-up-ness"... undoing the thread and coming back with needle and yarn of my own color choices in hand to sew a new sheath that most authentically represents the love and beauty, the light and liberation, and all of the glory that I dream of becoming...all that awaits the ascension to my highest potential...
Today, I bow to all of my teachers in their many forms.
LoveLoveLove,
sanieh
www.saniehyoga.com
www.twitter.com/saniehyoga
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